To leave behind hope? Oliver Marks has just served ten years in jail - for a murder he may or may not have committed. The night before auditions for Julius Caesar, one of the studentsAlexandersuggests that the auditions are pointless as all seven have been consistently typecast the hero (James), the villain (Alexander), the tyrant (Richard), the temptress (Meredith), the ingnue (Wren), and the unlucky two consigned to bit parts (Oliver and Filippa). As you begin reading "If We Were Villains", you start reading through our narrator, Oliver's perspective. James then grabbed the nearest item the boat hook and hit him with it. At that, James crashed his lips against mine, rearranging himself above me, taking me in, as I allowed him to do whatever he liked. James tries to help him, but is stopped by Alexander, who suggests they should let him die and thus end his reign of terror. I-, I stopped, guilt climbing up my spine. Since I couldnt count on the others to help me, I went by myself. However, as the semester progresses, the cast grows increasingly despondent due to Richard's death. Wash me from shore to shore, and left me breath. In the morning, the fourth-years find themselves facing their very own tragedy, and their greatest acting challenge yet: convincing the police, each other, and themselves that they are innocent. He didnt dare attempt to find James, worrying what else may befall his troubled mind if his eyes crept their way along James face once again that night. Said in words others could hear, but only I would listen to. This always seemed to be the case for James and me, all those years ago and all these years after. Oliver claims to love both James and Meredith, at different points throughout the story. The novel drew mixed reviews. James doesn't even bother trying to hide his look of disgust after some kid he's never seen before reports what he's seen in the hallway. At the cast party, Richard punches a student who had been flirting with Meredith. Oliver recognizes it as a monologue from Pericles, Prince of Tyre, in which Pericles laments the apparent death of his wife, Thaisa, in the middle of a storm at sea. If James Farrow was what it felt like to get lost in between the stars, then I didnt ever want to be found. Just to breathe. If We Were Villains is the debut novel of American author M. L. Rio, first published in 2017 by Flatiron Books. James searched for him by the lake, only to realize Richard had been following him the whole time. And certainly not now. Oliver and James have entire conversations using lines memorized from the countless plays they have . I never have. But when the teachers change up the casting, a good-natured . Meredith's disgust is very understandable she's jealous and insecure of the relationship. I got up, never letting go, and moved to the chair next to him, so we could be closer. Rio that read. I went to jail for you and you faked your death for me. James Farrow Needs A Hug; James and Oliver Deserved Better; Bittersweet; We desperately need a sequel to this gorgeous book; James and Oliver are so in love I can't; Summary. However, the situation changes at the annual Halloween performance, a select few scenes from Macbeth fourth year students traditionally perform each year. The novel concerns a murder mystery surrounding Oliver Marks, a former actor at the fictional Dellecher Shakespeare conservatory and primarily takes place during his fourth and final year at the conservatory. Genre: mystery/thriller. And in this case the letter does get to Romeo (Oliver) in time and he finds his Juliet (James). 27 Feb 2023 03:01:03 When they receive the cast, Alexander's predictions are revealed to be correct. James was dead. Plus, Filippa gave him the letter. i want him to be alive but the grief was already killing him at dellcher.. and then the one person he feels more for than anyone else takes the fall for him. I wanted to start small, but maybe it was my dramatic head that wanted to jump right to the most painful parts, setting the angsty bits on fire before they could burn me from the inside. My favourite characters in the book are Phillipa and James, two of the students in Olivers friendship group. But even with all the guilt he just had to try to have a chance of real happiness with Oliver. A series adaptation of the novel is in development. Rio 354 pages. His eyes, still cloudy with sleep, widened as he took in the sight of me, standing at his doorstep. Do you wish I had done it? He asked me, flatly. To me, this is one of the most heartbreaking scenes in the book, as we really see how tortured James is by what he's done. The chair we were on started to feel small, and, suddenly, I felt James hands grabbing me from the back of my thighs as he stood up, and carried me into the living room, lying me on the couch, and placing himself on top of me. We knew how to enunciate, how to use our emotions to the benefit of every single sentence that fell out of our lips. A decade ago: Oliver is one of seven young Shakespearean actors at Dellecher Classical Conservatory, a place of keen ambition and fierce competition. It sounds like he drown himself off the San Juan islands in Washington (where I live), in the winter time the water is cold and rough and deep, no matter how much dragging they did, its still the ocean, not a lake. He did it on purpose. So, there I was, standing in front of said cottage, on the beach where he had, allegedly, drowned to death. (Destiel vibes). James Farrow was dead. And me? he asked, small, haunted by too many years not being able to ask. If We Were Villains is a great story written by M.L. Perhaps because Rio is aware of exactly how pretentious Oliver and co. are, or perhaps because Oliver and co. are depressed messes in need of therapy and different friend groups, the characters of If We Were Villains end up being quite endearing and likable, despite themselves. (There are no mentions of him being alive in this fic, so don't get your hopes up.). He is a powerful being from the Nightmare Realm who is trillions of years old and is only interested in spreading chaos and is the archenemy of Dipper and Stanford Pines. The descriptions throughout this book are captivating. See a recent post on Tumblr from @ilovehimstill about iwwv. When you spend most of your life in theater, lost in the words of a man who felt and wrote so deeply at every turn of a page, and you go through the sort of experiences that I had gone through, you come out the other side expecting a moment like this to be held with fireworks playing in the background, lullabied by a classic orchestra, and the perfect game of lights to shine on every feature, every blink of the eye. Because I love you. And now they were standing precariously still, some glaring at Richard, some quivering quietly, Oliver crouching comfortingly next to James. That had always been our thing, after all: understanding each other. That explains His eyes flashed around the room in despair. Press J to jump to the feed. In there, my only comfort had been to know that the man I was protecting the man I now understood I had always loved would be awaiting me once I got out. I kissed the top of his head. Trying some small talk to break the ice. And maybe for just a split second, I, too, knew what drowning felt like. Hi, I said, softly, not being able to help the stupid grin growing on my face. Thank you for reading my rant. The popular book, "If We Were Villains" by M.L Rio, published in 2017, is the story of seven actors-Richard, Wren, James, Alexander, Meredith, Filppa and Oliver-competing their way through an elite college. The novel concerns a murder mystery surrounding Oliver Marks, a former actor at the fictional Dellecher Shakespeare conservatory and primarily takes place during his fourth and final year at the conservatory. I was getting nervous again. The James that Oliver loved is gone; however, physically, James is still around somewhere. Having made halfway friends . They were best friends and some could argue soul mates, doesnt mean they would have been good partners. Oliver Marks. So, I dont regret protecting you, even if it meant I couldnt have you. The tragedy is that Oliver will have to live with the fact that James is out there and that they can never be together. Alive, breathing, dry and utterly, painfully breathtaking. When the teachers mix up the roles it puts a strain on the friendship of Oliver's group, and things begin to go downhill fast. "If We Were . However why should he fake his own death? You went to Meredith. He finished for me. It wasnt long before my own tears were joining the one that James had left on my cheek, and, soon enough, it was undistinguishable where his pain ended and mine began. This is because the plays main story is about racism towards Jews. He had gone and given his lungs to the waves, released his pain for someone else to feel. If We Were Villains by M. L. Rio (debut) Publisher: Macmillan Release Date: April 11, 2017 Length: 368 pages Buy on Amazon. Youre insane. James let out, barely even a whisper, as if all the air had been knocked out of him. Because, even though I had had my fair share of guilt in it, Ive always hoped I had done more. A bully we loved until we couldnt anymore. Somewhere. Truth be told, there was a part of me that refused to hope, and maybe that was what kept me from simply combusting on the spot. Rio; Relationship: James Farrow/Oliver Marks; Characters: . It fucking hurts, Oliver!, No, you dont! He threw his hands up, exasperated. 10 years after the events, Oliver is approached by the former police officer who investigated his . Hearing James voice helped. Oliver's narrative voice is self-deprecatory, revealing that he thinks of himself as a side character in his own story. Upon researching James' death online, Oliver learns that James' body was never found. He becomes jealous and realizes that he is romantically attracted to James. He is alive, but barely. For strength, in case no one did. Rio, inspired by the secret history by donna tartt, I love you so much it scares me half to death (The other half I guess Im giving to you), Alexanders confused but he has the spirit, And Richards still dead (small victories), The Course Of True Love Never Did Run Smooth, Alexander is really not ok guys he needs help, I didn't like the way Oliver handled the situation in the library, No beta we die likemy sleep schedule apparently, but i found it cute and interesting to explore, this is my first time writing a straight couple, I have no clue when the other parts will come out, the sexual content isn't bad it's super brief, you got a nine to five (so i'll take the night shift), I'm not saying that you love me (I'm not saying anything). You might have been the one to give the blow, but that was all, and it was self-defense. Thunderbolts cast. My comments are always open for book-chat. Thank you, this is exactly the answer I was looking for. . Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. The unsaid, unwritten, unspoken; but spoken to me, in a language only we spoke, written to me in invisible letters only I could see. The novel concerns a murder mystery surrounding Oliver Marks, a former actor at the fictional Dellecher Shakespeare conservatory and most of the novel takes place during his 4th and final year at the conservatory. In the four years, they have achieved the goals set for them, that is, until tragedy strikes and only six are left to. Sure, they're utter trainwrecks who would be unendurable in real . With directions of a path no one else would even dream of walking, even if I explained, even if I tried to make them understand. The two tentatively resume their relationship. Because we belonged, me to him and him to me, and nothing could ever change that. Its not that, its just it makes me sad., Yeah. Why?, Do what, exactly? I asked, drier than I had intended. Youre alive, were the stupid words coming out of my own mouth. oliver finds james alive after being released from prison. Oliver and his classmates James, Richard, Alexander, Wren, Filippa and Meredith immerse themselves into the world of Shakespearean tragedy, and as they do their lives turn into a tragedy in ways they could never have foreseen. I believe that in the end, Oliver will never find peace, regardless if James survived or not. Im only sorry for how it hurt you, for the pain I caused you. I think James is dead. The students are briefly questioned by the police, led by Detective Colborne, and Richard's death is ruled a drunken accident. Richard began to taunt and threaten him, eventually making a homophobic remark in which he accused James and Oliver of being in love with one another and threatening to drown James in the lake. However, in the coming weeks, Richard grows more violent and begins to attack his fellow students, including his girlfriend Meredith, James, and Oliver, onstage during Caesar. But really, it doesn't take long because I don't have that sort of patience. Omg this! I raised my voice. He also desperately tried to avoid Meredith, but she snuck her way into his mind and filled it with ugly, hot flashes of guilt. One that James had once, jokingly, said hed like to move in, just so he could stay close to the water. James mouth was softer than I remembered. I felt sorry for her being always the one left behind, but I couldnt give her what she deserved. You know she wouldve at least talked to the others, at least considered it might have been an accident., James, I dont think you remember how you were that night. Then there was Alexander, who spent the better part of the first few years avoiding everything and everyone, Wren who just flew back to London and never looked back, not that I blame her. I assure you that had Richard not died by your hand, he wouldnt have survived much longer than the next day, as far as I was concerned., So thats why you convinced me to let him die? But it also alludes that Oliver can never find normal/peace. It has always been like that. I just couldnt do it anymore., You keep repeating that, as if saying it over and over again will make it make sense.. [3] On Goodreads, it has an average rating of 4.2 stars out of five. His inner dialogue was trying to convince himself the kid was trying to start shit just for the sake of starting shit, but after the bitter feeling of pure jealously settles deep within his stomach, he needs to confide in somebody. As if sensing my brain fume with concerns for the uncertain future, James began to shift on top of me, his head slowly rolling sideways on my chest to look up at me. Meredith who turned me in, and then went on to live her life as if nothing had ever happened, as if she had never known any of us and had no fault of her own in the situation., No, dont defend her. By clockwork art. You wanted to help him, but I told you to let be, do you remember that? . If We Were Villains is such an intricate, multi faceted read that there is no doubt I will get more from it when I . What he wasn't anticipating, albeit what he wouldn't have expected from him under any circumstances, though Richard had a nagging way of proving the whole group wrong, was the act of, putting it literally, attempting to drown the one who did play Macbeth. Their reconnection is very fast paced because I personally believe that weve had enough slow-burn in the actual book, so lets just let the boys be happy together as fast as we can. The group agrees to wait for Richard to die, then call the police and pretend he was already dead when they came upon him. Bill Cipher is the main antagonist of the Disney Channel/Disney XD animated series Gravity Falls, serving as the overarching antagonist of season one and the main antagonist of season two. Detective Colborne wants to . Im not going to deny that I love her-,. If you havent made any enemies in life, youve been living too safely. The only light came from inside the house, probably the living room, and the positions in which we stood cast shadows all over James face, so much so that I couldnt distinguish the marks of time which were sure to be there, somewhere. The waves, released his pain for someone else to feel may not have committed he romantically... 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